Dear 2014 ~ 2015 me,
- You will find yourself in the same school as Yumi. She will text you happily and you will find that your undying crush on her will develop into affection.
- Joseph will prove to be the least of your concerns as you stumble home hand in hand with a boy who will never stop loving you no matter what kind of fuck up you are.
- You and Austin will remain in contact and he's still really nice.
- Your father will still be an ass but you'd be more determined to ignore him.
- Mom loves you. She's a dick, but she loves you and you know you love her too. It's easier to love someone who doesn't get you, never will get you, but still does everything she can to get you. She's infuriating, but at least she's trying.
- You will perform poetry at all these Open Mic events and you will find yourself overwhelmed. Don't worry. Your friends will be there for you, cheering in the audience.
- They will also buy you drinks while you're still too young to buy alcohol.
- You're not a girl. It's ok to feel that you're between genders. It's ok to identify differently.
- You're sick, darling. Get some help. Go see a doctor. Or if you're afraid, talk to your friends more. Talk about your problems. It'd be ok.
- I know you never talked about it here but you need to know that it's Ok to regret giving your virginity to Joseph. It's better to regret it than to realise you never said anything to your second sexual partner because you were afraid of him. Because you sensed violence and danger. It's better to just regret.
- School will keep being hell. But at least this time you can find some enjoyment from it.
- Yeah, you made the right call about the school counsellor. Don't let anybody convince you to do anything you're uncomfortable with. If context is really that important to you, stick with that.
- For the love of God, talk to Echo more. She's a good person. She has a good heart.
- You're gonna be alright, kid.
~Alexander, 2017
18 years old.
- Also your line breaks are horrendous.
~2018 Alex
