Lonely

Ah, so it comes again,
The insomnia that takes me,
Consumes me and hates her.
It hates her, that one in the mirror.

The ‘me’ I see is so strange,
I’m confused by it all,
Afraid,
Deranged.

But then there’s you,
Who sees me differently.
The one behind the scenes,
Who doesn’t hate or despise me.

So now you’re busy,
And I’m supposed to be asleep.
But I’m not tired,
No, not in the slightest.

So I think I’d just sit here.
Just sit here alone.
I’m going to stay awake.
Just waiting…

But the truth is,
Despite it all,
Even though you’re not right here with me,
Somewhere far off away from my sight.

Despite all that,
I’d still sit here alone,
And through the lonely times…
I’d still wait…

Because all I ever wanted was to see you,
To hear you,
To know that you're safe.
All I ever wanted was you by my side.

That's why,
I'd still be here.
That's why,
I'd still wait...

...

Is that okay?

Try Me

So you come again,
Beating me up like you always do.
Tell me once more,
What makes your day?

Is it the way that I fall,
Or how it has been done so?
I see no point in defense,
As you always find a way.

Come by me twice more,
I'd show you what I'm made of.
Come by me fourfold,
I don't really care.

I don't have time for your petty things,
I don't have patience for your idiocy.
So if you decide to cross me this time,
Which I think is suicide.

Try me,
And I know I will win.
Try me,
And I will beat you down.

- A poem about my father.

Lost - Poem

As I stare down into the chasm,
I wonder if this was right.
"Ride into the night,
My brave little outcast."

So I jump down,
Plunging into the dark,
And for a second I see a spark.
Run towards the light, never turn back.

But curiousity kills the cat,
Like how it is killing me now.
So now I stand alone, wondering how.
How can I find my way again.

And then I realise,
That I'm all alone,
I sit in the depths of the unknown,

And I realised that I'm lost